Longing For the Love of a boy: My Love Story
By Guest Blogger, Jordan Flowers
As a young girl, teenager and early 20 year old woman, I prayed to God to send me a boy that would love me… all I wanted was to be loved by a boy!!!
Six years ago, I became a single mom of a baby boy, Caleb. God answered my prayers! Caleb instantly became the love of my life. I swore I would be a one child household and that the man of my dreams would already have kids because I was done. They say if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plan. Let’s just say, he was crying from laughing so hard.
Fast-forward to life today… I am happily married, my son is six years old, I have an angel baby in heaven and a 5 month old son! My, how life has changed since I swore up and down I would never have another child so many years ago.
Being a single mom, life was hard, but I managed to find a good rhythm and I really felt like I was rocking it. I worked full time, took care of myself by losing over 100 pounds, my baby boy was happy and healthy, I had great friends who I still spent time with… life was great! However, something was missing. I was lonely. I had all of this vanilla ice cream and all I wanted at the end of each day was a big bowl of chocolate ice cream. The vanilla was great, don’t get me wrong. I loved it and cherished each delish moment, but my heart still felt empty. I prayed… and prayed… and prayed… I was ready to meet the man of my dreams. I met men; correction, I met boys, but none of them were the chocolate I had dreamed for. So, I continued to push forward being a single mom, taking care of my baby boy. Two and half years went by and I was exhausted looking for Mr. Right. I had a dating profile on Plenty of Fish; I had met so many losers. I decided to give it one more try and I am so glad I did. The night Casey picked me up for our first date (I never let guys pick me up, but I just had this feeling about Casey), I instantly got butterflies and just knew he was the one God had set aside for me. I even told my friend, Julie that same night that I was going to marry this man! We were married two years later!
Now, here is the funny part of it all; remember how I decided six years ago that the man of my dreams would already have kids because I was DONE?! Well, Casey had never been married and never had any kids! Good move God, good move!
It is crazy how life changes so quickly; I went from not wanting a second child to longing to give Casey a child. We were pregnant shortly after getting married! Sadly, that pregnancy ended in miscarriage and it made me long to give him a child even more! October 2014 we found out we were pregnant again; Dax was born June 14, 2015! He perfectly finished our family! I finally got that chocolate ice cream I had longed for so many years ago. I got it by marrying Casey and giving him a child!
Now I am surrounded by three boys; three boys who love me so much more than I ever thought I deserved to be loved. Three boys!!! I can’t help but think back to young Jordan who longed to be loved by a boy, who prayed to be loved by a boy, who desperately searched for a boy to love her. And now, here I am with three boys that love me more than I could ever imagine. God is so good!!!
I guess, what I am trying to say is that life doesn’t always go the way you plan it; God’s plan is way better than anything you could ever dream of. Pray for what you want and really believe in God to give it to you. You might be surprised when you finally receive it, to find out that it is way more than you ever thought you wanted or deserved!
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